won't use this anymore.. go back to reading the jugem one.

carruselblood.jugem.jp

that's it.

29

shit ive bought so far.

so much to do.. waa.

28

ive been so busy i havent updated.

this computer is so weird. it changes my letters to hiragna.

i am officially a fan of arashi, kattun, and ninomiya.. yeah thats pretty much it.

there are so many things to buy here in japan, its weird, i bought some socks and clothing.. everything is cute.

i also bought magazines.. there is kera like in all bookstores.. i thought it would be harder to find.


i miss a lot of people.

27

Tommorow I leave...

That's it.

26

I don't know what I should be writing anymore.

I'm really excited?

25

I want In Cold Blood by Truman Capote.

I got new sneakers, they're ok.

That's it.

24

The smell of food disgusts me. I'm not sure why, it's creepy. It happens a lot to em though, I don't think I have an amazing relationship with food. I just eat it to survive I guess.

I want this.

23

There is nothing much going on at the moment.

Just getting ready to leave Chile, and that's pretty much it.


I need to buy new shoes.

I think I'm sick, which sucks since I only have one week to recover.

22

I just arrived in Santiago a few hours ago, really tired, I don't think this entry will be interesting.

I forgot my laptop charger so I'm pretty much fucked. Oh well.

9 days left.

21

Had my goodbye party today. I felt a little sad.

I'll leave in a few hours, I'll be in Santiago until the 16th.

I think it has finaly seeped into me, the fact that I'm leaving everything and everyone. Somehow I'm relieved, but also feel this inmense pressure. Sometimes I like it. This feeling.

20

Post number twenty. I wonder if anyone really reads this blog.

Today I'm going out with Yasna. On Friday I think I might be going out with all of my friends to have a goodbye party. I still feel a little sad about that, but at the same time I'm excited.

I wish my hair was nicer, it's very short at the moment, and I sort of wish it was long, but when I had long hair I always wanted short hair. Well until I cut it.

I keep having strange dreams, I can't remember them but I always feel heavy when I wake up. Then again I always have creepy dreams, which is why I'm not that fond of sleeping.

19

I was looking for a little weather cat for my city in Japan, but there was only one for the city I will be going to school in. Oh well.

One of my friends said that she felt like they were going to take away one of her organs when I leave. Well if that happened then I would be left without any organs, I'm going to miss all of my friends I'm leaving behind here in Chile. Although I hope to make good friends in Japan, it's still not the same. Every person is different, each friend is special, so maybe I will feel this slight pain when I leave Japan too.

18

"おしえてよ 魔法のような幸せはどこ？"

- Plastic Tree : 絶 望 の 丘

It makes me feel a little sad. I can relate to it at times. This band is okay, recently I have taking a liking to them, even though I'm not that fond of visual kei at the moment. Their lyrics are very lonely.

Today I went to get a blood test, and the lady couldn't find my vein, and just put the needle in, and it hurt so much. I ran out of the exam room as soon as it was over because I was scared. For some reason... I couldn't move my arm and was in pain for some two hours. I think they should find people with more experience for these jobs, the fact that she had to call another person in to help her with the needle made me nervous.

I love kewpies.

Also I've been considering reading lolita, but I feel that I will probably understand it better when I'm older. I'll defintely start reading One Hundred Years of Solitude though.

17

I had the weirdest dream ever. Period. Javiera, Fernanda and I had gone to buy sushi, and decided to run to the supermarket which was across the street. Then Javiera's shoe fell off, somehow, and she went to get it, and got hit by a car. The thing was that the only thing that happened was that she ran off and peed her pants. Wtf. And she also dropped her cellphone, I decided to pick up the shoe, camera and cellphone and lay it on the street, because she had a skirt and decided to change. It was just so weird...

I'm still tired. Allergies suck.

16

Aaa last day of the music club thing I used to go to. It's a little sad to say goodbye, I met some of my best friends going to their meetings. Well at least I still have my friends.

I also ate sushi with Fernanda, we ordered it over the phone, so it was a home delivery. It took a really long time to get to her house, I think the guy got lost. We also walked her dog, which we always do together.

When I was at her house, I noticed it was cloudy and grey, I love grey days, they make me feel calm.

15

Yay Josefina is here today. She brought some magazines she got in Australia, I like his style. The guy on the left. Haha.


I got some presents from Australia. Cool. It's kewpie, a little pouch, wind up penguin, and a mushroom cellphone strap (my favorite). I also got some strawberry pocky but it's all gone now.


I suck at taking pictures.

14

I got a haircut today, I'm not sure if I like it all that much. I'll post pictures later when I find my camera. I wish my hair grew faster.

Josefina is back from Australia so hopefully I will be able to see her before I leave for Santiago.

Coaltar of the Deepers are good, shoegaze is one of my favortie music genres, the songs are so dreamy.

13

I found my Ipod Touch. Yay. It's really nice, I forgot I even had it, even if it doesn't have as much capacity as my other Ipod it looks much more stylish.

I might be going out with Fernanda today and take some pictures.

Josefina is back, I can't wait for her to get back to Antofagasta, I don't know what I'll do without her for one year.

12

My last days in Chile. Sounds as if I'm leaving for ever huh. Well, who knows. It's not so hot anymore so I feel like I have more energy to do things.

My cousin who came to visit leaves tommorow, I'll miss him.

I'm tired.

11

I'm so tired, but happy.

At the moment I'm talking to Maria, a friend from like 6th grade I hadn't talked to her in such a long time, it's so nice to hear from her again.

10

Going out with Yasna. I'm going to
miss everybody here in Antofagasta.

I've been exchanging emails with
my host sister, she seems nice.
There is still so much left
to do here, I stil can't believe
I'm going to Japan in one month.

09

Me. I look silly.

I love it when it's cloudy.

Arica was way too humid for my taste.

I should buy some skirts.

08

I'm bored and not feeling well.

Summer sucks. Spring is the season for me.

07

In one month I'll be in Japan for a year. There's no telling what will happen there, but I hope that I will come back to Chile having made some good memories.

...

Yeah.

06

I stepped on jellyfish. They would explode and it made my feet hurt. When I was younger I used to be really afraid of getting stung by one, but now that I have been stung by some I don't really mind.

I'm bored and I miss Josefina.

05

36 days until I leave. I have so much left to do and I don't think I'll have time to do anything I had planned before leaving.

Maybe if I work hard...

04

Finished cleaning up my room. I feel better now.

03

Today I felt good, like nothing could ever bother me.

It was weird, but nice.

02

I'm going out with a friend, I guess it'll be fun.

01

Tired, tired, tired.

Recently I've been feeling like I don't belong in some places, where I used to feel comfortable. It confuses me.

I need to buy some new contact lenses.